I started reading this book called The Artists Way, it's a book about creative "un-blocking." I will preface this post with the fact that I don't necessarily agree with everything in the book, and I think its kind of healthy to disagree sometimes. It means your thinking about what you believe and how you view the world. Anyway... the book takes you through a bunch of weekly tasks to spur a creative unblocking. One of the tasks is to do a daily activity called Morning Pages.

The activity is this: every morning you wake up a half hour early to get up and write three pages of longhand stream of consciousness morning writing. You're not supposed to go back and reread the pages and you're supposed to turn off all your inhibitions and just get it all out on the paper.

I'm going to be honest with you here. I don't really like it. It's hard. Mostly because I'm really great at hesitating and second guessing. And sometimes when I write a page can take an hour because I spend most of the time thinking.

You know that part of a relationship with another person where you get to the point where all the small talk conversation topics are out of the way and then all of the sudden you reach a cross roads in the relationship. You're either going to go deeper or go your separate ways.

Thats kind of what it feels like. I've gotten all of the surface-y stuff out of the way and not I'm starting to find things that are going to take some work, and it's kind of scary.