Seasons come and go, and I'm finding that sometimes life just has growing pains. Theres a lot of discomfort that can come with these seasons, but it really is an opportunity to learn in the process. I guess I'm just beginning to see themes in my life of certain things that I've almost grown out of. It's just like trying to wear a pair of shoes that aren't your size, you end up in more pain than you should. Yes, there is a certain amounts of nostalgia, especially if they are a pair of shoes that you really liked. Even though they are stained and have holes, they might even smell a little funny, it's just sometimes hard to let go of something that you like even if it doesn't suit you anymore.
I'm way too patient, and I get way to attached to things. So letting go isn't really my forte, even if its good for me. However, there are certain things in my life that I just don't have time for anymore, and my heart is yearning for simplicity. So I just want to let you in on a few things that I am trying to get out of my life, I think it's all part of the growing process.
Clothes that I don't feel beautiful in...
I'm really picky about outfits. I wouldn't say that I'm super high fashion, but I do have a particular style sense. One of my least favorite things is to get half way through a day and realize that I don't love what I'm wearing. My goal is to do that less, I'm also wanting to give tailoring a try on some of my favorite pieces that don't fit perfectly. I want to feel comfortable and beautiful in everything I own.
People that don't think I'm funny...
I typically have a really high tolerance for people that are difficult, but recently I'm finding that some of my biggest frustrations come from people that I'm not confident on who I am in relation to them. I'm not sure if that makes any sense...but I guess thats alright with me. It's just really hard to grow when you are consistently second guessing yourself, and I don't really have time to not grow. And if you're hanging out with someone who doesn't think you're funny...why are you wasting your time?
People who make me feel like I'm not very interesting...
This one and the former one kind of go hand in hand. I really think the bottom line is I can't have close people in my life that don't add value to who I am. I want to be the kind of person that adds value to others, and its hard to do that if you are around people who don't make you feel valuable and interesting. Long story short, the people who care about you will always ask you questions, laugh at your jokes, and like your instagram photos. I hope you wrote that down, thats a good thing to remember. Don't spend the majority of your time around people who don't make you feel like a valuable individual, because you are a valuable individual. [A quick disclaimer, I hope you understand that this is not geared toward anyone in particular, I'm just writing these things down so I can help myself identify unhealthy themes in my life and move forward. Also I'm recently in a particular feisty mood. I'm not going to apologize about it.]
Time wasters...
I feel like I've gotten pretty good at eliminating major time wasters from my life, but there is always room for improvement. The biggest one in my life at the moment is Netflix, and I'm trying incorporate healthy things while I watch my favorite things (I won't lie to you, right now it's Animaniacs, Which was a childhood favorite of mine. The good news is I still laugh at their jokes.) I'm also trying to balance it out with watching Skillshare videos to help me stay sharp on my learning skills.
Sleeping in...
I really don't like feeling lazy and I hate that sometimes I sleep in. Yes, I know sleep is important, but I wish I could make myself get up earlier. I'm working on it. Right now I can get up at 8 without an alarm, but I would love it if I started waking up at 6 or 6:30 without even trying. Like I said I'm working on it.
The moral of the story is don't wear shoes that don't fit, it's not good for you, and if you find yourself in a rut figure out a way to grow...even if you have to make yourself.
Have the loveliest of days!
-Fran